This past week has been… i cannot find the words to describe it. Like, last week, I was in a different area to where I am now. From a desert, to the Garden of Eden, you could say. Its funny because, I promised myself I wouldn’t go down this one path in my life because I’ve tried it twice, and nothing really serious came from it, only pain. Now, I find myself being led by a hand down this path again, after I said that I wouldn’t go down this path this year.

And with it, i find myself conflicted in emotions as to whether or not I should go along, or resist. Whether to take the opportunity that could bring ecstasy, or distraction. I don’t know… I’m not new to this feeling, but I am new to this: the feeling is coming TO me, not from me.. For a long time, I was running, now its running TO me.

A fulfillment of a bible verse? Definitely.(Matt 21:22)

But never did I imagine it would be fulfilled in this area….